FLASHBACK FRIDAY 17/52
15:43:00
I feel like it´s sometimes the littlest moments in
which you realise big changes. For me it was just now standing in line after my
lunch break at work and yelling back at my colleague if he also wanted a
coffee. I stood there and felt so crazily grown-up. I also had a tinge of this
feeling a couple of weeks ago, when I first revisited my old campus after
leaving uni in September and met up with some friends. I realised then, that I
was no longer a student, that in a weird way that part of my life was over.
I still only work certain weeks of the months, I still have a lot of
time off, but in general I have transitioned from being a student to actual
grown-up mood, with a job, bills to pay and a set schedule. I think this fact
has not really settled in due to my five months abroad as well as this weird in
between-phase of the last month, where I did not have my own room, no idea
where I was headed, no set layout of the next couple of months – really nothing
but a lot of anticipation.
I have only come back from Australia seven weeks ago, sometimes it
feels like I have never left at all, at other times it feels like I am a
completely different person than the girl, who left Germany in October. In the
past seven weeks I returned to my freelance job in Cologne, found a permanent position
in Hamburg, moved into a new temporary shared flat on Monday, got a new gym
membership… It feels funny to be back in Cologne even if it is just for two
months, a city I never really considered until my internship last year, but
which I have thoroughly enjoyed every time I am here. It feels funny to have a
set schedule of heading to work at 8:45, biking through a spring green city,
working, heading to the gym and then falling back into my temporary bed. I have
my routine back now, I have a room for myself back and I have so intensely much
to look forward to in the next months: a fresh start in Hamburg, a job I have
always dreamt of and which I love, visiting friends near and far… After
floating around for so long I have found some footing again and it feels like
after a long long transition period I have finally made it to what I have always
perceived as grown-up life. It´s still funny to me that I now have lunch breaks
and head to my gym afterwards and have office banter. Funny, but also very
rewarding.
Read: One of the perks of working in radio is that
you sometimes get books before they even come out and get to read them at work.
I have read the amazing book by the German free diver Anna von Boetticher. She
speaks about her experiences as a diver, about overcoming challenges and about
the joy she feels underwater. It inspired me so much, made me immediately want
to go and get yet another diving certification and was a thrilling read. So if
you love water or diving or inspirational books get it. I am not sure if it
will be translated but the German title is In
die Tiefe
Celebrated: Easter with my family and loved every bit of it. I am so so lucky to have such a loving, supportive, amazing bunch of people around me
Celebrated: Easter with my family and loved every bit of it. I am so so lucky to have such a loving, supportive, amazing bunch of people around me
Fingers crossed: for an absolute dream flat in Hamburg. Please
pray for me
Felt: Content to be home. To actually look forward to come back to a city I
hated for so long, to freely choose when to come and go and especially who I
surround myself with when I am there
Planned: Two trips
Booked: One trip – see you next weekend Berlin!
Ended: Fasting and really really enjoyed being back on the chocolate and chips.
However also kind of scary how majorly addicted I am to some types of food.
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